My grandparents are dead - My grandparents are ALIVE!!!

My grandmother Gaggy died a long time ago and now she is in heaven growing younger. She was named Calliope, and I was named after her (Cali is my name not Calliope although some people think of me as Calliope because I used to go by Calliope), and she changed her name legally to Carol. I had a dream that might have been about her roommate. Its hard for me to see myself as Calliope because I don't want to BE her, and for a long time I was afraid of her. The last moment of mine with her, she loved me so much I did not understand how anyone could love that much...but she had beautiful love in her she was old and dying and had memory loss but she remembered me and now God tells me that she is growing younger. I was afraid of her age I never want to grow old and because I already died and became an angel I know in my heart (and hope) that I will never grow old like she did. Once God told me through Gaggy's loving voice that I'm unique, and that Pappoo (my grandfather) is in hell. I know that he will get out and go to heaven, if he hasn't already. I think he abused Gaggy, but I could be wrong. I see them as Gaggy and Pappoo, they were my grandparents, but one day they will be my age. I barely know my Grandma Arlene, but she died too, she was Jewish, she loved me but I barely ever saw her, she had cancer and died of it and is in heaven or hell I don't know. But I think she was a good person that believed in God, even if she didn't believe the way I do, on a Christian journey, loving God and His Son Jesus and my neighbors and my enemies. I don't know if she ever read the Bible. I barely remember Papa Sky, Grandma Arlene's ex-husband (at least I think he is her ex). The abused my dad, Lee. Once he was locked out of the house and had to come in through the window. My dad threw me on the ground, but I forgive him. My mom was emotionally abusive whenever she was/is angry, but I know she loved me - loves me - and she always apologizes and holds my hand when I'm scared. I pray that God heals her cervical cancer. I am a writer - and a dancer and a gymnast at heart - one day I will flip freely in the gymnastic gym with cheese mats and foam pits and big soft mats and trampolines and trampolene tumbling tracks with a big mat at the end and one day I will do gymnastics in the grass outside in heaven. I'll be free, and I'll talk with Gaggy and Arlene and Edgar (Pappoo) and Aaron Dotle and all his angel friends and Peter Panagas (one of my ancestors who my brother Peter was named after.) In fifty years I will start talking with Damon again from the bottom of my heart. I wear my heart on my sleeve. I have so much love for everybody, because God loved me first I love.